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Live the Questionsl

‎"Be patient toward all that is unresolved in your heart. And try to love the questions themselves. Do not seek the answers that cannot be given to you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is to live everything. Live the questions now.   Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer." ~Rainer Maria Rilke

Live the questions. What are the questions?
-What's in store for my life?
-Where is my life going?
-Will I ever get married and have kids?
-When will I ever have enough patience to pass as someone virtuous?

How can I live my life and not be consumed by them?  Being consumed by what I will become, what I will do, etc...  Today I felt like I grew a tad bit in virtue.  There were so many times when I wanted to speak my mine with a sarcastic comment or an even worse eye roll...but I didn't.  Now, I'm not going to get ahead of myself here and get all proud of my patience and humility.  It's not like that, but it is nice to live out for a few hours what I've been striving for these past months/years.

Whenever I wanted to succumb to the terribleness, I just took a walk or went to wrap some silverware.  A definite step in virtue growth.

Also, decided I should go to Mass in the morning to get some extra grace before a day that would try my patience.  It is the memorial of St. Philip Neri and if you look up to the top of this blog page with the Lord saying "You have prayed for patience, and I have multiplied the opportunities in which you could be patient." So, I thought (and actually said out loud), REALLY?!  Probably good I had St. Philip right there on my side when I was going to be tested like crazy.

Taking the lessons I've learned lately and practiced today - and bringing them again into the future encounters with her.

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