I have many blessings in my life, truly more than I can even count and keep track of most of the time. I realize that I am quite blessed to have a job that I like at a place I enjoy working at. I am blessed to have great friends who will do anything for me. I am blessed to have a family where we all speak to each other and, although it's not often, can stand being around each other. I am blessed to have my health. I am blessed to be able to afford my life - although I do have student loan debt, I am financially secure enough to have purchased a house, own my car outright, and there is money (not much, but some) left over to buy things like a computer and a new phone amongst going out to eat and having more than rice, beans, or mac'n'cheese for dinner every night.
I know all of these things. I saw the conditions of life in the third world - maybe times over: Sao Paulo, Brazil; Managua, Nicaragua; Kinshasa, DR Congo; and around the United States where people have less.
Yet, I still lack real perspective (which I actively sought) when it comes to my life and how annoyed I get when others do not do things that way I want them do. Yeah, I typed that right - you read it right - I get annoyed when others don't do things that way I want them to do them. There's the problem, right there - typed out in black and white.
Do you ever feel that way? Am I the only one? How do you change your attitude and perspective?
One of my issues is my Type A personality - which until about 6 months ago I was in denial that I even had. If you know me, then you're thinking that is quite the crazy statement. It's true though - there was one day, I cannot remember what prompted the thought process - but I had the realization that I was in fact Type A.
I have this vision for success in life not only for my life, but the whole world! Yes, I know it sounds ambitious, but more so it's just prideful. I know this, I just can't seem to kick the habit. I also know that it's not always the best way, just the way I'm thinking.
|Via Kendra over at Catholic All Year!|
Today is the Memorial of the Guardian Angels, so I'm thinking of tasking this effort to my Guardian Angel. At Mass today Father said since angels make decisions with their whole self (nothing reserved) they are able to be more devoted to the task at hand than we are.
I'm hoping that my guardian angel doesn't mind taking on this extreme effort.
Until he gets to it though, I'm hoping I can survive the rest of the work day! Maybe if I could recall what I learned in the Congo in the midst of the struggle (rather than just afterward), I could keep that perspective. Dear Guardian Angel, please remind me of those precious faces each time I need perspective.